The devil tormented me with regretful thoughts:
' I should have done this better'
' I should have spent more money on him and time with him'
' I should have done this or done that'
Through all this, the Holyspirit never left me. I was so angry. I made up my mind to stop going to church because i wanted to avoid anything that would remind me of GOD's promises but GOD found other ways of reaching out to me.
On Social media,
Different accounts and handles posted, tweeted and retweeted
psalm 30:5
"Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning"
Open Heavens devotional read :
Matthew 5:4,
Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
On the internet,
Revelation 14:13
"...blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on. Yes, says the Spirit, so that they may rest from their labours, for their deeds follow with them"
I realised God wanted me to talk to him and for the first time since the loss, i cried. I told God how much i love my father and how much it hurts that HE has taken him away from me so prematurely. I told GOD how empty i felt. I uttered the dreadful words: "I am now fatherless"
Then i attended the Global Leadership Summit, which i thought was a circular summit, one of the speakers spoke about dealing with the death of a father with the scripture:
Psalm 68:5
"Father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling"
Again, i wept but this time, the tears were those of relief. I realised that i was not alone. GOD took my father to fill that role in my life. The role of a Father. The One that will protect, love and care for me. The One that will supply all my needs according to His Riches in glory and HE has been faithful.
THE ALMIGHTY GOD IS MY FATHER!
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